HXDK - The Letting Go
If listened to without any sort of context or a backstory, HXDK’s “The Letting Go” might be considered just another piece of rather abrasive and alienating ambient/drone with a bit of Tim Hecker as an inspiration. But reading the description of the album on Bandcamp just makes the message and the music so much stronger. Reading it will make you understand why there is a burning bridge on the album cover. Because this release is all about burning bridges. Just read the author’s words:
This recording documents a period of my life when I was experiencing the grief of losing family and friends - those who had passed away, and also those with whom my personal relationships that had deteriorated beyond repair. My inability to deal with these losses manifested itself in depression, anger, frustration and destructive behavior towards myself and others until there came a time when I realized I could either continue to let it ruin my life or channel it into something constructive by being creative with the only thing that brought me a small semblance of joy at the time (and continues to do so to this day) - making sound - and hopefully through that process be able to exorcise those demons by metaphorically burning the bridges that connected me to that state of mind and to ultimately make it possible to “let go”, move on and not look back…
Now, take a minute or two while this all sinks in and listen to those tracks again. The agony and the suffering are more present than ever now, because you now realise making music was the man’s escape from destroying himself. And that’s what makes HXDK such a strong act - it’s not artistic, it’s therapeutic, a means of escape. Recommended.